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[necktied]

oh...whenever is good for you

[that sounds casual, right? not desperate. not desperate. not needy...]

[shesgotguts]

[that sounds like a loser response, but she'll take it.]

weeeeell... im free now! even more so if u are too! lmao

but if ur not... do u want to get together tomorrow? two days? three? a week?

[necktied]

[the best he can do is curb the even-more loser response of YES NOW. and stretch it to slightly less losery:]

hows tomorrow night?
im kind of busy at the moment
and have a lot of things weighing on my mind...

[deep.]

[shesgotguts]

[maximise the loserness, eugene. show ur true form.]

oh. [don't sound so disappointed. damn.] tomorrow sounds great! ur place or mine?

weighing on ur mind? oh no... if u need to talk about it with someone, know im always here to listen. i know how hard it is to shoulder a burden alone

[necktied]

[although takaki has done a good job at cleaning up his disgusting bachelor pad, they won't have any time alone there...]

your place if
thats okay
id never hurt you so dont worry about that

[shesgotguts]

it is! ill get the snacks, u bring the movie and ur cute self!

aw, thats sweet, but im a tough girl! im not worried about getting hurt
im a little worried about u tho... is it really that much?

[necktied]

its no different than what anyone else is facing here
ill be fine
didnt mean to worry you
youre very easy to talk to
it must be your womanly charm...

[shesgotguts]

ohhhh so its THAT sort of problem

[??? what does that even MEAN.]

still, if u hold it in, it gets all twisted, and the sharp edges start to poke out of u. id hate to see such a kind boy turn into something like that [again.]

haha ur too sweet! im glad theyre doing something more than getting me in trouble! lmao

[necktied]

[ a kind boy...???

he doesn't know what gave her that impression, but he doesn't think he's ever been called that in his life.

it's nice, but probably totally inaccurate...]

wait what do you mean that sort of problem?
it doesnt have to do with THAT sort of thing if thats what youre thinking

[shesgotguts]

so then what does it have to do with hmm? romance? friendships? homesickness?

because all of us are dealing with sexual issues. only some of us are dealing w/ the rest.

[she will not confirm or deny if she's dealing with them too.]

[necktied]

how about you?

you still don't want to return home?

[shesgotguts]

i miss parts of where im from, but none of it is enough to make me want to return to it.
i dont even know if any of it exists anymore

you didnt answer my question, eugene. hmmmmm. [what a nosy shit.]

[necktied]

i hope it does for your sake
i hope it all gets better instead of you having to give up on it

hey
shouldnt we save some talking points for our date?
after the movie well need a lot to talk about

[shesgotguts]

im used to giving up on dreams
but! going back isnt one of them
lagunbiru is my home now. im happy here!

lmao maybe. if this is a date i might not want to see u after it! but you seem to think well have such a good time that well keep seeing each other... do you think i should agree with that idea hmm?

[necktied]

dont say something like that!
youre supposed to be optimistic
besides dont you think we get along pretty well?
i like listening to you

[shesgotguts]

[oh, eugene. she is. she's so hopeful she'll never have to go back to britannia.

and she's hoping she'll get to kiss a cute boy. double hope!]

oh so ur worried? LOL u shouldnt be. i bet ur cute as a button and ill swoon when i see u

i like talking to u and listening to u too! i think we make a nice pair! [of friends, but let him interpret that however he sees fit.]

[necktied]

[cruel...

also every guy here is like weirdly 10/10, eugene's pretty aware he doesn't stand out in any amazing way]

oh

well about what you said
youre used to giving up on dreams
that talks kind of depressing
but i understand a little
as long as you still have the strength to find new ones in spite of it
that kind of courage can make someone survive anything

[shesgotguts]

[kind boys with the desire to dismantle the government sit well with her. but he stands out to her-- no one else has suggested a movie date to her, have they?]

that talk is honest. would u rather me tell you that everything was hunky dory in my life and ive never seen a speck of trouble? that wouldnt make me very interesting...

but i still have a very important dream, and being here? ill have the freedom to make it happen!

[necktied]

i think a life without trouble would be interesting
it seems impossible so
for that alone

yeah yeah...youre really going to try and go through with that here? finding love
and a new home to go to?
or is it something else?

[shesgotguts]

it would be boring
a person without troubles never learns compassion or empathy. if everything goes ur way, then u never learn how to handle loss or disappointment. the worst people are made from the best situations. i wouldnt want to be anywhere near that person.

mhmm! that and maybe start a family. i can marry anyone i want here. no princes or nobles or knights required! i could have halfblood children and no one will tell me no!
the overall dream is to be happy, and thats going to happen here. i know it. ♥

[necktied]

[well, their lives have been continuously ruined by those "worst people", so he can't argue there.]

theyd say the same about people who have only known cruelty and survival
animals that had to kill their souls to survive
who only viewed that kind of thing as a weakness
havent you seen that too?

a place like this isnt exactly good for a marriage kind of thing right?
unless you like sharing

[shesgotguts]

[ooh. a little too close to home. how to answer...]

yes. i have.
ive met people who have only known winning and those who have only known losing.
and those who would do anything to come out on top.

[lelouch, suzaku, her parents, herself. it takes her a couple minutes before she sends the second half of her text, needing time to calm down from her self-induced anger.]

it could be!!! if u love someone, then u work out ur issues together. marriage isnt hard. u just have to be open. but i dont intend on getting married anytime soon. i just like thinking about it!

[necktied]

and are they just as bad as the people you mentioned before?
doesnt the outcome of actions matter more than whats behind them?

also
um
can i ask you a bit of a more serious question

[shesgotguts]

no. theyre not. i think hardships build character. it creates a kinder person, even if that kindness is buried.
and that intentions matter just as much as an outcome does. sometimes even more.
if someone destroys something, its not like u can forgive them but its easier to process if it was done with good intentions

MORE of a serious question? well you may but i may choose not to answer!

[necktied]

the people who are destroyed dont really get to process anything

okay...well
are you running from anything back at home?
something you dont want to face?